Alarms

08:00 AM

My phone rings
I answer it and hear
a lot of noise, a lot of voices
on the other side
and my students start talking in a choir
“We’ve already learned everything, teacher
thanks for your help, but you’re no longer needed
feel free to sleep forever, if you want to.”
then come my friends and they say
“we’re gonna be alright, things are working
perfectly and we will kinda miss you but
it’s ok, you can rest in peace”
At last but not least
my family says that they’ve taught me all they
had to and that I’m free now to
live without them and my mother whispers
she loves me and that she knows I’ll be just fine
sleeping.

I gently close my eyes, feeling comfortable
Ready to sleep until

08:02

The phone rings again
now it’s god
saying he was only joking
I can’t escape from my obligations with
other people nor with me

I start running in circles
Inside my head
I get lost, I get mad
despair lands on me
I curse, I call him names
I disgrace life and everything else
I… I… fall

08:05

Another ringing
mixed with the cicada’s buzz
sunlight breaks into my eyes
my cat stares at me
my head hurts
my body is heavy
and oh shit
I’ve got no time for it
better wake up
or I’ll be late

There are people waiting for me.